Doubt!

Last night I posted that I had gotten an “A” in my Christian Ministry class and I was excited about this!  One of my friends said “And your surprised by this?”  Why yes and no.  Yes, because I waited until the last minute to write my final paper and no because God has prepared me for this moment.  While I have never been good at school, I struggle with it but when I finally yielded to God’s call on my life and not my own, this thing called school is getting easier because ministry is what makes my heart beat fast!  This Sunday as I was sitting in church it was like his still small voice was reaffirming my call to ministry, speaking to me and tell me that God has prepared me for this moment in time.  I’m still unclear as to exactly what area of ministry that God has called me to but I do know this that as I walk in HIS will life is easier!  When I was walking on my own it was oh so much more difficult because I was in a battle against His will!  Don’t let the enemy destroy your dreams and passions and callings by saying “YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH” because friends let’s face it “YOU ARE MORE THAN GOOD ENOUGH YOU WERE CREATED FOR THIS MOMENT!”  When God call’s you answer, when God calls he’ll provide away, when God call’s you have to stomp all over the face of the enemy because he doesn’t like it when God’s children answer because Gods army is growing and the enemies army is shrinking!

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Flash Back Friday!

So, instead of Throwback Thursday, I’m going to do Flash Back Friday!  This week we are taking a walk down memory lane to some of the Women of Faith’s I’ve been to!  Because y’all TODAY is that day and I’m going to be grinning from ear to ear!!!

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The amazing and ever so honest Scottish accent speaking Sheila Walsh!  Love her!

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Last year they had this video of a sand artist and it was amazing!

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Last year was the first time I had heard Liz Curtis Higgs and I was blown away by her story and how God used her to speak to us!  If you ever get a chance to read her book “The Women of Christmas”, you should!  It’s amazing!

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Lisa Harper!  There is so much to be said about her! She oozes Jesus!  And her amazing precious Missy does too!  Lisa is one of the most dynamic, authentic and down to earth bible teachers!

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And Sandi Patty!  This was a year that I went and was a group leader!!!  A few weeks before my back surgery!  It was a breath of fresh air that was needed!

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And this was the year I took Lily and we sat way up in the rafters in Des Moines, Iowa!  It was a great time with other women from my church!

Thankful Thursday in pictures!

I’m going to share all in pictures!

1) DSC02046 My daughter Lily!  I love her more than I could ever express!  She amazes me!  She is strong and beautiful!  She loves Jesus! She makes me be a better person!  She loves cats! She loves music!  I am lucky to be her mom!

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I’m thankful for Timmy!  He is a silly guy!  He loves well!  He loves Jesus!  And I’ll forever be grateful that God healed him!  I am thankful to be his mom!!

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Wiliam David!  He is loving!  Sensitive! He loves sports!  He loves music!  He loves Jesus and I am thankful to be his mom!

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I am blessed for Women of Faith!  I have been attending for over 10 years!  Sometimes not so willing but now Joyfully!  I am grateful that Steve Arterburn yield to the call to create a conference for Women!  I am grateful that Sheila and Barry Walsh have continued that!

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I am beyond grateful that God allowed our paths to cross!  We get each other because we have been through very similar situations in life!  It’s an exciting adventure that we are on!

Thankful Thursday

1)  I’m thankful for this new relationship!

2)  I’m thankful for two amazing parents!  My mom and bonus dad!  I can’t wait to spend a few days with y’all in Texas!  There will be a ton of laughs and memories created!!

3)  I’m thankful for laughter!

4)  I’m thankful for the AU pool!  My kids and I get to spend time together there and they get to grow in their confidence in the water!

5)  I’m thankful for the relationships and the people and the body of Christ who cared for me while in Fowler.  During that time I saw the church beyond the church walls!  Sometimes it takes going through those times in life when you are knocked flat out and the only thing you can do is relay on others and Christ!

FOUR YEARS!!!!

It’s been quite the journey!  Four years ago I was anxious, scared and most importantly afraid!  I am grateful that I serve a God who is BIGGER than all of that!!!  Four years ago today I was in the trauma OR at Methodist Hospital in Indy, having my back broken because it was at a 109 degree angle crushing my internal organs!  Here are a few pictures to celebrate where I have been!

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This first one is of my back pre-op. 109 degrees!  The second one is of my back post of at 63 degrees!  And the third one is of me a few weeks post op at home!!! YEAH!

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This is the AMAZING doctor that said “I can FIX your back!”, the first time I met him!  Dr. Khairi at Goodman Campbell Brain and Spine and his amazing NP Stacey LaMasters!!!  Won’t ever go anywhere else!!!

New Music Tuesday!

A few weeks back I was watching “Night of Joy” from Disney World online and Chris Tomlin shared a brand spanking new song from his soon to be fresh album “Love Ran Red” called “Jesus Loves Me”.  As I listened to it I got chills thinking of God’s love!  It is now on iTUNES!!!!!  If you can get one song today this is it!!!!!!!

“I was lost
I was in chains
The world had a hold of me

My heart was a stone
I was covered in shame
When He came for me

I couldn’t run, couldn’t run from His presence
I couldn’t run, couldn’t run from His arms

Jesus, He loves me, He loves me, He is for me
Jesus, how can it be, He loves me, He is for me

And it was a fire
Deep in my soul
I’ll never be the same

I stepped out of the dark
And into the light
When He called my name

I couldn’t run, couldn’t run from His presence
I couldn’t run, couldn’t run from His arms

He holds the stars and He holds my heart
With healing hands that bear the scars
The rugged cross where He died for me
My only hope, my everything”

http://www.klove.com/music/artists/chris-tomlin/songs/jesus-loves-me-lyrics.aspx

From Chris Tomlin-Love Ran Red.

You’ll be encouraged, inspired and reminded that JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!  No matter how far you have ran, there is no depth or distance’s that you can run from Jesus!!

Who Do YOU Inspire?

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Last week my daughter Lily shared with me how she had to choose an adult that inspires her and write them a letter.  She says “Mom, I picked you!”  I was surprised!  I thought really?  If she only knew how many days I feel as though I do a terrible job at being her mom.  How I feel at times when she calls me crying and all I want to do is run and scope her up in my arms and protect her.  But then I get a letter that goes like this:

“Dear Mom,

You’ve inspired me.  You inspire me all the time.  You tell me that I CAN when I think I can’t.  You tell me that  I’m special.  You help me get through my rough times at my dad’s with my grandma and dad and Shay.  Do they make me want to pull my hair out or what!

You help me get organized.  You tell me I can!  That makes me feel A LOT better.  You tell me stories about what happened to you.  When I’m upset you make me feel better.

I love you so much.  I can’t wait to see you today!  You inspire me a lot.  I know god gave you a gift.  Thanks for inspiring me!  Please keep doing that!

Sincerely,

Lily”

That letter is getting framed!  Priceless words that point me in the right direction that I AM doing the right thing!!! 🙂  Proud to be her MOM!

When God’s In it!

Y’all the past year or so has been an interesting one in regards to dating!  I’ve been on just about the majority of the dating websites from POF to eHarmony to Christian Mingle to others searching for Love.  I’ve met a wide variety of men but most of them had no desire to have a Godly relationship but they were much more interested in Friends with Benefits!  I even had a guy who I really liked and saw for a  little over a month and came to find out he was STILL Married!!!  Back in June/July my best friend Kevin, was like just take your profile down and STOP looking!  I took my profile down from all but one and that was Christian Mingle.  There was a guy who lived about an hour away who contacted me but had NO PICTURE!  Normally I just blow those profiles off and don’t respond BUT, I responded with “Do you have a picture? Here’s my email!”  He sent the picture and I was like okay he’s not some weird guy and we chatted for a few weeks.  We then went to email because my subscription ran out for chatting!  We had planned to meet at a State Park to hang out but he had gotten sick from his kidos.  We rescheduled a second time but God works in ways that we don’t see and he had gotten offered a teaching position down in Indy which is closer to where I work! 🙂  He had a week to clean out his old classroom and prep his new classroom AND get ready to coach 8th grade football!  So, we rescheduled again!  This would be a 3rd time! 🙂  I was working on a Monday night and he came into the store.  I was on the phone and I thought THAT’S HIM!!  He walked by, and I thought “Dang It! Missed Opportunity!”  So, I went and stood in the luggage department hoping he would walk by again and HE DID!  I locked eyes with him but didn’t way a word!  I went over to the phone and did a credit announcement and he came back down the middle aisle of home and I walked up to him and asked if there was anything I could help him with? And he kind of stumbled and I said “Are you Byron???”  The ice was broken and we chatted!  He had successfully SURPRISED me!!!!!  That is kind of hard to do if you have spent time around me!  Since he is the assistance coach for 8th grade football, I’ve been to a few games because PRESENCES matters!!!!  We got to spend time together on Saturday and I am amazed at when God is in the middle of a relationship how different it is!  Ladies DO NOT COMPROMISE!!! NOT WORTH IT!  So, while we were out and about he opened the car door for me, which is HUGE because I usually open it before any guy can!  And yesterday he bought a book “The Love Dare” for us to go through, which spoke volumes to me because it means that he WANTS to be the leader and that having the BIBLE as our playbook in our relationship and Christ as the foundation is UBER Important to him!!!!!!!!  Stay tuned to see where this goes!!!

Oh one more thing!  I LOVE watching Women’s College Basketball and he’s not a fan of Basketball!  He coaches Wrestling as well and I’ve NEVER been to a wrestling match!  So, he commented that on a Friday night when we were watching a Basketball game after he would explain wrestling to me!  I was completely taking away because to have a guy want to watch Basketball with me was like YIKES!!!! in a good way!!!!! 🙂

ANCIENT GATES!

While I don’t have a picture of their latest album, you will want to hop over to iTunes or http://www.alannastory.com to pick up their first ever full length album!  It is beautifully written with songs that will challenge you to grow deeper to Christ. The song lyrics are raw, real and authentic!  They had a release concert last night and it causes you to think about what Christ did for us!  It is all worship, has amazing drums and lots of strings in it!  Check it out!  You’ll be glad you did!  

How Do You Do Ministry?

The other evening I was out with a few friends and we got on the topic of ministry.  I told my friend that I didn’t do ministry the way the church see’s ministry and she said “Well, how do you do ministry?”  At first I was taken back by this question but it challenged me to express how I DO, do ministry!  And this is how I do ministry, I do ministry with people I am around every day.  I do ministry amongst the broken and the hurting.  I don’t do ministry in the realm of 4 walls and expect those broken and hurt to come to me.  I go out where they are.  I love them where they are at and it is with that they will see Jesus through me.  I don’t preach at them, I love them.  That is what Jesus did and that is what he called us to do.  LOVE!  So simple but at times so hard!  We in the church often have these ideals of how a Christian should look, act and talk and that shuts a lot of people off and away from the church.  We need to focus on where they are and how we can help them take their next step towards Jesus not away from him.  We need to judge less and love more.