This week I have been in Iowa. This has been the first trip back since my dad passed away. This has been the first trip back for my kids. It has been filled with good and some sadness. On Tuesday we went to the Town pool in Jefferson to swim and see if we could throw money in the pool as that is what Dad would have done on his birthday. The pool staff said “Oh, we are already planning something!” My step-mom Sandy and I were surprised. He made an impact on these young kids life that they were wanting to do something in honor of him! HOW COOL! Yesterday, we went to Adventureland which is something my dad has done with me since I was Timmy’s age. The kids did great and we had a good day! Today was a little bit harder as I had to go to the cemetery and the Monument place where you pick out a headstone. That was a bit emotional. Dad is still at the funeral home and will be placed in the ground soon! He will have place to be memorized by. Although his memories will live on in the people around him and the lives he impacted. Then I saw somebody that worked with dad and she said they missed him. That was hard and I know tomorrow there will be tears too as we pass out roses around town as that is what dad would have always done. He was always doing for others. He was knowing for his generosity! Along with passing out roses we will be throwing money into the town pool and watching in delight as the kids go after it. We will also be having a DQ Ice Cream cake! Dads legacy lives on! I would be lying though if I didn’t say that I would do anything to have him back! I want to scream how this is not right, it’s not fair! But it is what it is and we go on remembering.
Its been about 3 weeks since I quit my job. Some may have seen on Facebook that I have been job hunting. Yes, I quit my job without a plan in place. I LOVED my job but the demands of selling ‘x’ amount of cars verses spending time with my kids was taking its toll. I was seeing my kids one full day a week and various other times as time permitted. I have always held fast to this, I can ALWAYS work but I can NEVER turn back the time I have with my children. I am doing fine financially and am at peace as of today. I’ve struggled with having a hard time finding the right job up until today. I checked my financially situation and realized that God is in control not I. He has kept saying “Trust me.” Today, I placed my job situation in his hands and am trusting him! Is it easy? Actually easier than I thought it would be. I now have a peace. My plans are to finally do what I should have done post high school and go back to college and get my degree in Certified Medical Assisting. This is a degree that will allow me to get clerical experience as well as clinical experience to test the waters on my back. If my back tolerates the clinical side of things then I will pursue nursing. My first goal is to complete my schooling for myself. If you know me, this will be HUGE!!!! I tend to be all over the place and loose focus of the goal in the process. So, yes I am jobless, and no I don’t regret it.
You may be thinking does Jennifer know that it is July? Does she realize that this is a Christmas song? The answers are Yes and Yes and there is a point! As I was driving, which I LOVE to do, I was listening to random music on my iPod and “Hark The Harold Angels Sing” came on and I listened to the song several times. As I listened to this song it came alive to me, the virgin birth, the angels celebrating! It was a moment in time that we should celebrate not just in December! As I take time to reflect on this song now in the stillness and humidity of July I am able to get a better image of what Mary had gone through and the celebrating that had gone on when Jesus Christ, the Messiah was born!!!! I’m grateful that I heard this song in July. I think at times we get so caught up in the busyness of December that we don’t take time to truly reflect on the words of the song but rather we go through the motions. So, even though it is July and there are no Christmas decorations up at your home take time to reflect on the words of this Carol! Be blessed as you are a blessing to others!
In Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I WILL GIVE YOU REST!”
When was the last time you took time out to rest in His presences? These past two weeks I’ve had the opportunity to go to some good friends “Camp Parker”! They have a really cool little underground house! I’ve had the opportunity to stay there. Its peaceful! It reminds me of spending many summers at Camp Adventure, the place I felt closest to God. Its a great place to go because I get to unplug from the cell phone world! At first I was frustrated but I learned how much I needed that peace! And granted I did not take the opportunity to lay out under the night sky, it is no doubt God who created the star lite sky! Take time to rest! We live in a day and age where we want it now but yet we are so desperate for the peace and quiet! The few things I cherished over these past two weekends were the fellowship despite sinking chairs, amazingly yummy home cooked food and the bugs in the bathroom! Yes, BUGS in the shower brought a smile to this face! Why you ask because it brought back memories of camp! The shower how ever was beautiful clean clear water bliss! If you’ve been to Camp you know exactly what iron, rusty water I am talking about! The other quirk that made me smile was to keep the shower temperature “normal” you had to have the sink water running too! :-). Its the little things that make me smile! So, I encourage you to make a way to find time to take rest! Be blessed as you bless others!